Just inappropriate...

Have you ever been in the middle of a conversation or even approach a conversation with a plan of what you're going to say how you going to say and things just don't go as planned... We'll i think I'm notorious for... "WHEN KEEPING IT REAL GOES WRONG"... cause i very seldom if any bite my tongue... What i think is what i say for the most part and the people that really know me know that i think first then i speak but my answer normally is devils advocate mixed with a sarcasm, with a splash of amazingness, and truth without regard of feelings... I dont feel like im rude im just raw...

Ex. A friend(majority females do this) fishing for compliments: "i like my shirt but i dont think it looks all that hot on me what do you think?"

Jag's Answer: You could wear anything just not that shirt. (am i wrong)

Ex> A guy friend Jag's I'm really digging this chick what you think about her?

Jag's Answer: I dunno man she seems like a princess (aka spoiled bitch)... guys never take your advice at first cause they gotta have sex with them but two weeks to a month later their back screaming this bitch is crazy ( am i wrong)

Ex. A female friend says this guy is so nice he does this he does that he's just perfect... he's blah blah blah....

Jag's answer: Slap!!! woman get real even i ain't that good and I'm the best man you know.... (am i wrong) (background) With my certified license to reading people i understand that the first week of dating.. there are these facades their what i call "stand In's" he's johnny perfect and she's Betty donowrong... and you'll hear "Me too" ."I keep it real", "i just aim to please", " I've never done that"...blah blah blah...

No one really keeps it straight to the point... raw and uncut... there are feelings and emotions we all like to spare. I spare when needed but i would rather be JUST INAPPROPRIATE... what about you?

'Athazagoraphobia"

ssssssooooo i think this is the real reason i started this blog

"Athazagoraphobia"- Fear of being forgotten or ignored or forgetting.

Yeah... yeah... yeah... i know that knowing the problem is half the battle but I've come to the conclusion that this is a major war not a battle and my down fall is I've paired that the fear of being alone O gosh... Yeah you can make that face again...

i absolutely hate being ignored and sometimes I'm not even being ignored i just have a major issue with longquiettimespansnomusicalone i think its called Solitaire....People say Patience is a virtue and i agree cause i have patience actually i have lots of patience... example people cut me off on the E-way (expressway) and i don't flip out even though i wanna play bumper cars with them or see if they know sign language ya know.... i dunno it's just weird... I don't know if i got a twin out there somewhere or something but i feel real abandon when i text someone, bbm someone, email someone, or call someone and i don't get a response back.. example like hey i like your new profile picture <- me sending text-> yeah thanks <-then returning the message-> so hows your day<-me sending text three seconds later->_____________<- them not responding .... am i crazy or should there be a OK but I'm busy notification right there... lol... i dunno maybe I'm just weird.

So i said that to say this i talk to myself when there is no one to talk to... but i do it on here.. does that make me crazy?

Forgettable

So i was in wally world(Walmart) yesterday I was of course picking up groceries and household items all at once... And I'm walking through the dairy aisle grabbed some milk for my cereal and shredded cheese for my baked potato that night.... and i saw this women that looked so familiar... she was at the other end of the aisle so i really couldn't tell if it was her or not but as we got closer i realized it was...(pay attention now)... The mom of my hairdresser (when i had hair) who claimed i was her baby's daddy (who still owes me money for the paternity test i took) but I'm not worried about it. eh!

And we walk right by each other like i could have kiss her on the cheek and kept walking that's how close. This is the same woman that wanted me to be her grand daughters father she literally said i love you and want you to be the father... wow i know. So we walk past each other and she doesn't say a word so i say Hey! very subtle to see if she notice and she looks up and stares at me for like 45 sec she squinting her eyes and everything.. then she says "I didn't know who you were"... OMG come on now i haven't changed since i was in third grade my head just grew into my ears and my body developed nicely...

I said that to say this
Do you think your FORGETTABLE?
because i didn't think i was until yesterday.
I actually still don't think I'm forgettable i might be replaceable but not forgettable.

Minute Made

Yes i am original 100% pure squeezed... lol... As i go through my mondays list of blogs and read what most of my fellow bloggers are talking about I notice a slight similiarity in them all.

the number one topic this week or weekend has been Arguments... now i very rarely think im wrong, so i totally understand not agruing with fools cause people from a distance can't tell who is who... i also would rather to agree to disargee than fight but i also like to listen to the other persons point of view before i do.

Now the second most popular topic is Marriage: NO comment... Gotta find the one first.

The third most popular topic is Love: And with this topic i often struggle because Love is a difficult thing to handle especially if it's from an outside source... You see love from your family is unconditional it's suppose to be there regardless of issues, hang-ups, health reason, etc,. But when i comes from someone outside your bloodline that's when it gets confusing cause if you're a Christian then you should understand that Love is what this whole world we live in is all about. the Circle of life, the truth, relationships and the law we are suppose to live by. love is difficult. period.

My life is like a movie

So i am notorious for riding around town with no gas in my car... i could have a pocket full of money but choose not to buy gas but really it's not me not buying gas it's me forgetting to put gas in my car i just dont look at the gas hand often cause i just assume that i got gas it's so expensive ( in a mocking tone) that i just fill up everytime i go to the gas station which is not often at all you would think i get good gas mileage but hell no!!!! i drive a Lincoln now what Lincoln you know get's good gas mileage..(dont say the LS). ummmm none!!!! Anyway so i get on the E-way (expressway) thinking im gonna go somewhere and Ole Pearl (that's what i call her) act like she dont wanna get a move on... and we stop...

in the mist of Ole Pearl stopping my mom calls and says i need you to come get me right now(she dont have a car) and im like why she's like your step dad got in a car wreck so im freaking out on the inside but being me i stay calm and say ok momma i be there shortly

... as you know im standing on the E-way with no gas... It's a good thing i come well equiped with a gas can full in the trunk put my gallon in and keep it moving! Get to my mom's spot she get in the car like boy why it smell like gas in your car? My Life is like a Movie!!! M.L.I.L.A.M!

My opinions

On my blog i attempt to go outside the normal for a blogger. I try not to use my forethought to talk to you. I use creative expression and sometimes just speak the unverbalized jiberish that comes to mind... it's really not for everyone and i understand that not alot of people like just creative thinking But I find myself brainstorming of ways to make you think or evoke some sort of emotions. With that said let me begin again.
As you and i collide at the mind...by that i mean you reading my writingsi sense a deeper connection it's the lost form of communication it's the most subtle love making ever my conscious in your brain it's amazing to me it's so amazing that we rarely acknowledge it. When i read your blog i often think "i feel that" or "it's so true" or "Damn" i'm immedately inspired to create...And this is it this is our moment this is our chance to once again dance... Will you dance? Two step superman Then booty do And lean wit it Switch to the other side And rock wit it Then pop lock and drop Then stop... And do the body rock.
In my mind we just danced Women, men, boys, and girls all across the world Can you see what i see? Did you feel what i felt?I wonder as my conscious speaks in your brain do you think the same?

My opinion

You do.

Know thyself

who i am

the exotic quiescence of earth

Brown skin, brown eyes, beautiful smile

athletic build strong enough to walk a green mile

the guy many moms would love daughters to walk the aisle

sense of humor, serious at times

works very hard to intrigue minds

somewhat understands the art of love

Life is part of all the above

struggles with trust but who doesn't

never claims to know it all

just a little about everything

communicates straight forward rarely around the bush

listens and pays attention you'll never hear hush

loves love and hates love at the same time

doesn't want to die alone

but it's inevitable

if he could be anyone

it would be Mr. Incredible

who am i

i am me

i am he

I am who i say i am

i know who i am

do you know me?

"KNOW THYSELF"

Have you...

Have you ever had a thought about ur thoughts?

Have you ever thought you might be lost?

Have you ever thought what it would be like without you?

Have you ever thought no one would ever miss you?

Have you ever thought about what your purpose is?

Have you ever thought about how many people you influence?

Have you ever thought no one really cares?

Have you ever thought who will wipe your tears?

Have you ever thought who knows your fears?

Have you ever thought you thought but thought wrong?

Have you ever thought like i do?

-Cause these thoughts are hard and some thoughts are true-

Have you ever felt like crying but couldn't?

Have you ever felt you were right?

Have you ever felt the truth?

Have you ever felt Love?

Have you ever felt like i feel?

-if you feel like i do then you feel deep and true-

now tell me have you?