Disappointment

Have you ever been so sure about something and poof disappointed!!! Well I'm in the middle of that right now... i realize the end of one thing is only the beginning of another but... damn i hate starting over... it's just so frustrating when you're accustom to one thing and things change drastically... new house check, new rims check new job check... These are all things i wanted but the drastic change has created some conflict... new job is disappointing i thought wrong about it and now I'm disappointed. not financially just mentally.

should i
A. suck it up
B. search for something i love
C. keep grinding it will get better
D. all of the above.
E. none of the above enter answer_________<-here

Well whatchu think Wednesday?

I've come up with this idea to do something different on wednesdays... I need advice often but i'm normally the person giving advice so i dont get it from my peers. I just going to set up a situation... Here's the first entry of whatchu think wednesday.

Eh.. so... i... uhh... got a new house yesterday... yes thank you thank you but... in the mist of my excitement i locked my keys in my car... so my dumb ass has to walk all the way back to my rental property get my phone call pop a lock and get my keys for a fee of 55 bucks damn i need a spare which that in it self is gonna cost $110 me...That's what i paid in pop a lock fees so far. so it maybe a good investment.

Well whatchu you think?

Just inappropriate...

Have you ever been in the middle of a conversation or even approach a conversation with a plan of what you're going to say how you going to say and things just don't go as planned... We'll i think I'm notorious for... "WHEN KEEPING IT REAL GOES WRONG"... cause i very seldom if any bite my tongue... What i think is what i say for the most part and the people that really know me know that i think first then i speak but my answer normally is devils advocate mixed with a sarcasm, with a splash of amazingness, and truth without regard of feelings... I dont feel like im rude im just raw...

Ex. A friend(majority females do this) fishing for compliments: "i like my shirt but i dont think it looks all that hot on me what do you think?"

Jag's Answer: You could wear anything just not that shirt. (am i wrong)

Ex> A guy friend Jag's I'm really digging this chick what you think about her?

Jag's Answer: I dunno man she seems like a princess (aka spoiled bitch)... guys never take your advice at first cause they gotta have sex with them but two weeks to a month later their back screaming this bitch is crazy ( am i wrong)

Ex. A female friend says this guy is so nice he does this he does that he's just perfect... he's blah blah blah....

Jag's answer: Slap!!! woman get real even i ain't that good and I'm the best man you know.... (am i wrong) (background) With my certified license to reading people i understand that the first week of dating.. there are these facades their what i call "stand In's" he's johnny perfect and she's Betty donowrong... and you'll hear "Me too" ."I keep it real", "i just aim to please", " I've never done that"...blah blah blah...

No one really keeps it straight to the point... raw and uncut... there are feelings and emotions we all like to spare. I spare when needed but i would rather be JUST INAPPROPRIATE... what about you?

Sucessful mindset

So... I'm in a little rut right now mentally I'm bored and unsatisfied...and i need encouragement... i had to find something to change my train of thought and this is something i found in old notes from high school...

My Successful mindset

Physically( Playing sport/ working out)
Mentally (Developing the mind)
Spiritually(Getting to know God more each day)
Socially(Building relationships and developing lasting friends)
Financially( Being financially responsible)
Family(Love all of your family all of your life unconditionally)
they know that it is not the result of accident... or chance or good fortune... or fate, but is built day by day by day one page at a time.

As I develop a successful life, I will also learn how to gain mastery of myself and knowledge of how to handle obstacles that will arise all of my life between me and my efforts to reach goals. In my successful life, I learn each day... how to prevent or stop the development of negative emotions... How to control my thinking, attitude, and habits.

People who learn how to establish goals, with a disregard of obstacles, and set their sights on achieving them...SUCCEED!!

Whatever you vividly... ardently desire...sincerely believe... and enthusiastically act upon must inevitably come to pass.

Change you mind im changing mine

Minute maid Monday

I start this week hot shower...
hot steamed body...
fresh shave...
ready for the party(not)...
now fresh out of the shower with my feet firmly planted...
i gather my things but I'm still bared handed...
during my commute to work i wonder where i landed ....
of all the mysteries of this here planet...
Not the earth but JaG's Planet...
it may sound weird but one day you'll understand it...
I'm starting the Journeys of Jag today...
for two weeks nothing but true stories...
very candid...
let's see if i can stand it...

So historically on my blog i have written very few fact based post. I like to write about my dreams, my feelings, women, love, sex and i like to express them creatively. I've always thought it was harder to judge someones creative creativity because it normally comes from their heart or imagination. That may be the reason i write like i do...Well, I said that because once again i plan on changing the manner i write. i am going to attempt to write solid factual post for two whole weeks or 10 business days. This is will be a release session for me but i really would love solid feedback...

"We know the truth, not only by the reason, but also by the heart."(Blaise Pascal)

Structure

So I've been brainstorming for about two weeks now about how i wanted to change my blog... but I'm not really sure how i wanna change it. My creative juices are always flowing but i don't want to make my blog brain surgery and or make my followers/y'all think to much even though i like to keep you think i just feel people get burnt out on trying to decipher things and understand poetic gibberish... but i don't wanna make it super structured cause that's not in my nature.

so i said all that to say this

Will you help me choose?

A. Structure: daily events or subjects mix with creative thoughts occasionally
B. Non-structure : the way it currently is... real mixed with creativity
C. Creative thinking : Nothing but creative pieces with a real background...

Just Change

Yea, so my day has flown by had a quick lunch a short break and a 5 minute twitter session first thing this morning. As i go through my Blogg-ic-tionary i notice once that the moods have changed this week.... from this weekends breakups, marriage scares, and love lockdowns... to contest winners, comedy, and change. I specifically want to speak about change. During one of my several but failed but enlightening relationships my counterpart stated to me about her ex " grown ass men don't EVER change there ways the time for change is before you turn 21." She goes on to say that Men and women once set in their ways they don't change." and of course i had to disagree because i tend to play devil's advocate and i like it soooo... disagreed... because I've seen lots of "Ladies men/playas/manwhores" and "Princesses/Hoes/playettes" go from "getting around" to married... and happily married not divorced or separated. ya see i view it like this people wont change unless they want to.... Like any other thing the will to win comes from within and without the will and the want to... it just wont happen. I say people can change you gotta want to and take the necessary step to do so. What do you think?

Ok i got a Question

Should marijuana be legalized?

(Clause: i dont smoke i'm just asking)

Rainy days

The sun is shinning but its raining at the same time

time and time again i attempt not to rhyme

but when i type my thoughts this is all that comes to mind

i mentally try to block the thoughts of love lost and current times

and wish for the perfect hook to lure you into my heart

then maybe I'll feel like you are apart

of my life even though your not really here.

reading my thoughts might make it clear

to see from my brain what i see when the sun shines and the sky rains.

Have you...

Have you ever had a thought about ur thoughts?

Have you ever thought you might be lost?

Have you ever thought what it would be like without you?

Have you ever thought no one would ever miss you?

Have you ever thought about what your purpose is?

Have you ever thought about how many people you influence?

Have you ever thought no one really cares?

Have you ever thought who will wipe your tears?

Have you ever thought who knows your fears?

Have you ever thought you thought but thought wrong?

Have you ever thought like i do?

-Cause these thoughts are hard and some thoughts are true-

Have you ever felt like crying but couldn't?

Have you ever felt you were right?

Have you ever felt the truth?

Have you ever felt Love?

Have you ever felt like i feel?

-if you feel like i do then you feel deep and true-

now tell me have you?

As the world turns

As the day moves into night and i begin to wind down from a long days work i drift into contemplation. Where do i go from here? What is the matter of my force? How do i continue? As i stare out the window watching the wind blow the trees. i realize time is flying by, i am far beyond the age i chose my destiny to meet me. (But is it really my choice?) i thought we had an agreement. Guess not. As my mind continues to drift further into dreamland the weather starts to change the once clear night clouds blow away and the heavy burdened clouds appear. A thunderous noise makes my heart skip a beat but i never lose sight of my favorite star. The polaris also known as the north star or north polar star for centuries sailors used this star as a guilding light today i use this star as motivation to reach for the moon. Even with the rain pouring down on my window i know that this star remains bright. The rain gets heavier at times and makes me want to move away from the window but i can't, im just so attracted to the stories of journey that have reached that star.

With that said...

With that said... I'll say it again

from beginning till the end

from sunrise to sunset

i hope yawl understand,

comprehend

better yet i hope it sinks in

cause even with my band and i

there's no sky high enough to fly and sing

the songs that just float through the mist we call clouds things

the air that we breath

to provoke emotion deeper that the ocean

what you'll prolly just do is stare

subconsciously ponder how rare

i claim

i am

how dare yawl

not trying to know me or show me yawl care

with that said I'll say it twice

there seems to be nothing that comes from being, right?

good is fine but do they appreciate the thoughts that come to mind

no prolly not

now we'll prolly be shot

far from yes right in that spot

the left ventricle

or better than the cerebellum...

the mind touches heart and heart touches soul...

train the mind to go and go and go far beyond this atmosphere

did i make myself clear

as the sky in a babies eyes...

simple yet complex...

um ah yes!

it really matters not cause these are just thoughts...

aren't meant to be bought

just read,

understood in your own right

defined and dually notified...

Make your mind dance in the front

not race from behind

And with that said I'll say it again!!!

Thoughts of a peaceful mind

RARE!!!

Okay... Normally

Okay,
Normally when i begin a post it starts as nothing and turn into this array of words meaning a lot, sometimes coming out as gibberish. i often wonder do my followers/readers really understand what I'm talking about because in my mind it sounds/reads so profound and seems so simple to logically put the metaphors and similes together that i keep writing, or when i write in poem style do my readers realize that i was not meaning to rhyme or to be poetic it just came out that way. When I'm in the mist of a storm in my mind the things that come out aren't whole sentences... their always fragments that make no sense at all. Like in the newspaper by the comics they have the word jumble, sudoku, and crossword puzzles, my thoughts are a mix of all four (that includes the comics). Is it weird for me to read my thoughts and hate every word of it cause i don't think their gonna get it? Is it weird for me to read my thought and think i know what I'm talking about but will they? How do i clarify the mystery's of my mind without losing my creativeness? I've never wanted to be like anyone but me. I have always been a very visual person and can visualize the greatest and the worst things but what if i didn't have that would i be dull. I don't intend on changing but i do often wonder if i were to start writing as i thought would a book i wrote be bought... how many times does a peace of mind talk? Never cause it wouldn't be peaceful if it talked. i won't apologise for my sudoku like codes and crossword like poems and jumbled up words that make more sense to me. i wont apologise for my half true stories that sometimes are more than half true and sometimes not true at all... I wont apologise for following you...i will ask... Would you answer a question if i asked?