Secrets

90.0 % of people have secrets and thats being generous its more like 99.9%. I was watching private practice and one of the doctors got raped and wont tell anybody around her whats going on and she's actually being a real asswhole towards everyone thats tried to reach out to her... i often wonder how people who keep secrets are so defensive?... and if its really the secret that makes them defensive or is it their conscious eating at them wanting them to release the pressure of their secret?  I say its not ok to keep secrets but i also keep a lot of secrets because im a good friend who just listens i rarely give advice unless asked and thats the main reason i feel better releases secrets here...to... yall because i only have two followers on here who really know me.... i said all that to say this..

Have you kept a secret or are you keeping a secret?

Do you have a private practice?

Yada Yada Ya

I feel like nobody ever listens
until my gloating starts to glisten....
thats after I say I told you so...
so maybe if i talk less you'll listen more
or maybe the more i talk the more i bore
you have to understand
maybe you dont and maybe you wont
i think you should
cause...then...
at that point...
 i would know you understood.

shhhhhh!!!

Shhhh lay back relax

she leaned back on the bed

i hover over her body and kiss her forehead

then the bridge of her nose

as soon as she cracked a smile i kissed her cheeks

then her chin and then... and then... her lips

get a grip.... TO BE CONTINUED

Welcome back

I haven't blogged since the music video... but thats only because i felt like i lost my supporters i need to know that people still read and your not the fast and furious like the rest of the world... tweet this...I love my followers and IM BACK SO LOOK for more post to come along with vlogs on my youtube. Update that... i still have substance.

Shades Down Low Music Video.mov

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Yea Well whatever!!! (encounters Interlude)

Yea, Well....Whatever

 Do what you do but watch my shoes...

ha ha...

there's so... so much i wanna say to you but you wouldn't understand even if you stood under it...

 it seems to you like I'm on some other shit but the truth of the matter I am on some other shit..

I'm NOT ABOUT TO FAKE AND FRONT LIKE YOU THE SHIT when yous just another bitch...

Hell...

what do i look like stalking you and not going to the lake and fish...

 Yea yea yea...

i know you love attention you can't get enough of it...

 you're shallow and the only thing we have is a sexual connection...

You talk to much...

I talk to little...

 you get on my nerves...

i get on yours...

You think I'm cold and heartless...

You are cold and heartless...

but on the other hand...

man this is bullshit...

i love the way you switch...

You can't leave me now not in the middle of this...

the source of my weakness is in Ur kiss...

 addicted to your ways of mischief and wits...

You got me hooked now the fall is getting longer...

my attraction is steady getting stronger...

high is getting weaker...

you got me acting like a geek er...

 smelling like a ten year old pair of ball sneaker...

dazed and confused lost in the struggle...

 trying to hustle and bustle...

i doubt you feel the same way about you ...

cause you don't know...

 what you do...

 it's second nature to you...

you do it easily...

but you know what...

 fuck that...

 Your not loving me the way i want you to...

 so i had to run from you...

you hit me with the 808 and i'll save the heartbreak...

Rain drops.pt2 of Encounters of the sexy kind

...After the long pause she spoke.... yeah i guess we can get dinner since i did rear end your Jag and i asked you not to call the police...(yes, this must be my lucky day maybe i should play the numbers) OK! well where do you wanna meet i asked real smooth like. Lets just meet back here tonight at 8. Cool sounds good to me. OK it's a date she said. As she stepped up on the running board of her Range Rover her Lil Ralph Lauren skirt caught some wind and i got a glimpse of a cheek (O wow what a wonderful day... hold on... I'm missing something distractions made me forget to get her number and name)  O hey beautiful, can i get your name and number? I'm Kym and my number is 213******* Cool I'll call you later. OK i"ll be waiting on that call..um mm what was your name? I'm Jai (pronounced Jay). As she drove off i began to wonder would she show or would she stand me up? Either way she was fine as hell. On my drive home my thought process went as follows: What To Wear ( Polo and jeans... nope, button down and slacks... nope, graphic tee and jeans...nope, night life white linen suit, check... o... shit it ain't pressed... um OK gotta go get the suit, drop it off at the hour cleaners and pick it up by 545 damn it!!!) At this time its 4:30  I'm 15 minutes from my house and still need to shit, shower, and shave(the three S's)... 30 minutes later i got the suit I'm walking into the cleaner.  Welcome to hour(our or hour you choose) cleaning jurvice (service) the Asian lady behind the counter says. Can i get this cleaned and pressed in an hour? She put her finger up as to shh me turns and starts yelling something that sounded to me like( bong Yong tie lie link) then a mans voice came from the back ( chin ) then she turns back around and says yes we clean suit my Priend (friend) Good thanks I'll be back in an hour. I run home do my three S's and make it back to the cleaners as my suit hits the finished rack great timing... i pay the lady and rush home with enough time to DVR Hard times of R.J. Berger. After about 45 minutes of chill axing i get dress spray on the Aqua Di Gio and i head to the Shell station where I'm met Kym i reach the meeting spot about 7:45... she pulls up approximately 10 minutes later (wow no phone call needed she must think I'm sexy)... let's see... So she gets out of her truck in this white form fitting skirt that hugged her lines like an S in first grade and her big black truck in the back drop of all of this all i could think was (Damn!!! Don't stutter... don't stutter) ..um uh..um... uh... you... uh... look... uh.. amazing...(Shit) thanks so do u she responded swiftly. As she walks in front of my car my minds starts to wonder (Do you think her ass is real or are those inplants ...Click... click what's that noise) thought interrupted by her pulling on my door knob. As she gets in the car she pulls on her skirt to get a little more leg lift and thats when i got a glimpse of NO PANTIES pretty "P" ( Commando is always a plus) TO BE CONTINUED.

Rain drops.pt1 of Encounters of the sexy kind

As I stand in the window watching the rain drops beat against the seal, i begin to focus on one certain drop it's path started at the top of the window. The lower this sky tear got the less paths it followed. The moment I had was interrupted by her hands sensually reaching around body to grasping my shoulders. With her head placed in the middle of my back she sighed and said "I love the way you touch me." See we just had amazing mind blowing sex but she is not my wife, my girlfriend or even friend. I know what your thinking (don't judge me just yet). Listen, I'm standing in the line at Shell gas station and she walks in of course i look cause from a distance she looked familiar but when she came in the door i was like O my GOD that's not who i thought it was. She looked like Nicole Scherzinger from the pussy cat dolls with blue eyes... and she's coming this way... o shit... Hey, is that your Jag out there at pump 4? Yea, i replied well.  I just kinda gave it a love tap i didn't notice it sitting at the gas pump. HUH!!!? How you not notice a car sitting at the pump already? Well what had happen was i was on the phone and my good friend... Oh never mind the long story  i said as i cut her apparent lie off.  So did you dent my car or something? Um, you might wanna come check it out she replied. OK, I gotta pay for my gas and my vitamin water but I'll be right out. As i make my way out to the pump i notice an all Black 2010 Range Rover with 24 inch blackout rims parked behind my car. Hey she says as she sees me walking out to my car. It's really not that bad i just didn't want to drive off and you see the scratch on your car and be pissed one day. As i gaze into her pretty blue eyes this song begins to play in my head Melanie Fiona's-"Give it to me right"... I can explain she says as she steps in front of me before i could get a good view of my car. It's okay i say as i attempt to go around her but she grabs me and starts to kiss me. ( Now that's how you get my attention but i gotta play it cool...be cool...act suprised) "What the hell was that? Oh nothing... she responded. Are you crazy? No. OK well let me see my car. Um... okay but promise you wont be mad. OK i promise. (lying) I finally make it to my car look down and notice a big ass dent in my rear bumper.(act mad) what did you do try to run through my car?(wait for the apology) Um I'm sorry. Yeah i bet you are! I'm calling my lawyer! NO don't do that I will do anything. (Yes, perfect now it's my time to attack) So how about dinner? (long pauses aren't good)... to be continued

Stressing!!!

Im am on edge...

yes

"Don't push me cause im close to the edge im trying not to lose my head. ah ha ha ha!!!" 

Have you ever been in one of those moods where no matter what anyone says you take offense to it?

I have matter of fact it happen to me today...

someone said to me

"You look nice today." and normally i'd say thanks and go on with my business OH NO!!!

 not today; today i said

WHAT..WHAT YOU SAY TO ME?

As if i was called out of my name or something.

That's just the beginning though, by 5pm I had offended 3 people i never intended on hurting anyone's feelings but the truth shall set them free...

it just seems like everytime somebody said something they sounded like daffy duck

annonying as hell

 Maybe i got a bad attitude maybe it's me...

Yea it's me i'm STRESSED THE HELL OUT

and if i dont get feed back i'ma need rehab..

..How get'm hooked!!... CAUSE JAG SAID SO!

This post is the first installment of my CAUSE JAG SAID SO...question answer session
If you have any questions situations or problems you need help with please feel free to ask me 

So im having a friendly chat with a real good friend on mine and all of a sudden in the middle of the conversation she says am i ever going to get married? In my head i'm thinking sheeeeeit I dunno but being the gentleman i am i hit her with the flex and said "of course you will your a great girl grown and sexy full of passion, love, strength, and loyalty." Well damn why the hell did i do that... here comes the (since jag thinks so maybe he knows something i don't)Questions.

HER: So what should i do then?
HER: How can i make him want to marry me? 
Well are you sure you want to marry him? (the reassurance question)
HER: Yes of course i am he's blah blah blah (the general good guy BS)
What are his cons i see you got all his pros down pat?(the information getter)
HER: Well he sometimes leaves the toilet seat up... and sometime when he puts it down he sprinkles... 
Ok TMI i really don't wanna hear about another mans toliet sprinkles..lol.. but if thats the only flaw he has then he's just not that into you i kid i kid... 
HER: JAG STOP PLAYING
Ok but forreeal what you need to do is suck more, cook more, and f**k more ... (two pill answer)
Take two of these and call me in a week...lol..
HER: Jag are you sure?
Have i ever lied to you try it and call me next week!!!

Who am I

So i've been blogging over a year now and i realized just today that i really haven't reveal a lot about WHO I AM! My name is JaQuar (JaC WaR) D. Sanders. I was born and raised in Louisville, Kentucky( Home of Muhammad Ali, and the Biggest horse race in the world). I have five sisters(hence casanova nickname), four older one younger. My mom is mixed her dad is indian and white and her mom is black and indian so i am a true 25% white 50% black 25% indian...but i check African american non hispanic in the census box...OK oK..   I Graduated from the University of Louisville BA's in Communication and Sociology... I was on the football team.  I also played 5 years of arena football. I've been writing creatively most of my life. I completed a book in college but I'm still unsure how to publish it so i'm still sitting on it. Now im blogging cause my mind sometimes gets clutter with lots of random thoughts and i like to know what others think about my thoughts but here lately noone seems to be reading... Gosh realilty TV i mean really scripted tv. i may just start Vloging but im not fond of talking to myself outloud. Well that's a short clip of who i am... wanna know more befriend me on facebook or twitter. www.twitter.com/mrjagsanders ... enuff said!

Survey Time!!!

Hey follower i have a quick and simple 8 question survey to improve my blog i really would like all of you who follow my blog to respond.. please and thank you all feed back with be utilized.

1. What attracted you to my blog?or how did you find out about it? 
2. What keeps you coming back?
3. What would you like to see change?
4. Do you feel connected to this blog? if not why?
5. What can i do to help you connect with this blog?
6. Am i asking to many questions?
7. What is LOVE?
8. If i visited your city would you meet me for an interview?

Penis Monologues "I get angry too"

My penis is mad

Na Na my penis is angry

Shit my penis is both
My penis is ma-ngry

You wanna know why

At birth the doctor cut skin off his neck

which makes his head sensitive as heck 

At twelve he wakes up drowning in a puddle of semen

At thirteen he has this weird bush growing at the base of his knees man! 

they call it puberity

At sixteen he meets vagina

and he lost his virginity

At eighteen he's addicted to vagina

and needs serenity 

At twenty he bought this jacket named trojan

he hated wearing it because it choked him

At twenty-one he was at the top of his game

he and his jacket made him a household name 

At twenty-five his twin neighbors turn blue

cause vagina was teasing him and wouldn't let him cum through

At thirty he get's anemia and loses his strength

and everybody blames him for what his body thinks

At forty he goes over the hill 

cause he's made a legacy and will soon need a pill 

then he gets sick and quickly falls like niagra

At fifty he gets the pill and it's called viagra

It's not fun at all being played with and jacked

but he says he "guess its better than getting hacked or catching the flu"

but dont get it twisted cause

"I get angry too"

The Penis Monologues- "The Christening"

The phone rang three times 

that's my line

"Hello"

"Hey"

"Its about time"

"Yeah you must have been waiting on my call"

"Sure was but that's not all "

"Oh i know that's the reason for my call

my mom just left and went to the mall

She said she'd be gone for a long time

So why dont you come over and see my..."

"Well i'll tell you that later

just make your way herre"

WOW!!

Ten minutes later i was walking in the door

she took her jeans off and threw them in the floor

she unzipped my pants real aggressive like

It was fitting for her cause most people thought she was a dike

But she wasn't and i was glad

'Cause this next moment i had

She leaned back

Soaking wet

i entered with caution but i held no slack

She moaned kind of loud

 that was that

Splat!

Say hello!

For all intensive purposes shit say hello... dont just stop and stare!

Positivity...hmmmm

Sometimes its so hard to have a positive attitude. If you've been where i am you understand how hard it is... My mind status says "It's taking more to smile than to frown" i feel like i might need botox by the end of this week.
I somehow have create this thing in my subconscious...
its kind of like I predict whats going to happen and 85% of the time I'm right and when I say I'm right I mean I'm "right on" like dolomite in the 70's.
Now I'm not saying I'm a psychic but shoot I'm must be channeling some kind of energy that makes everything just go just like I think it.
I know you asking what does this have to do with being positive?
Well I somehow know a lot of liars well maybe not liars just people who have a problem keeping it real and i can't deal with that. It's weird....
matter of fact let me just give you an example...
lets say you and i were more than just blog friends and i ask you what you did today...
and you tell me nothing but work...
my first thought is
(ok i know you worked but what did you do)
my second thought is
(thats not all you did so what did you do)
my third immediate thought is
(you probably talked to so and so and such and such about this and that)
so my next question to you is so ummm what happened today...
 now at this moment my attitude has sort of changed because you've already given me the run around about what you did today...
am i wrong for wanting a full conversation rather than vague circular semi sentence?
I like depth maybe that's my problem, maybe me wanting to know is the reason i get negative feelings when i dont know.
So at this point after i ask a third time or even a fourth time with more specific details each time.... i ask like...
So did you talk to so and so? Or what did you eat for lunch or maybe even did you think about me today?
Then my thought is
(i dont even want to know now cause when i asked the first time you said nothing)
but now its this big long story about how you and so and so talked...
and ya'll planning a party and im not invited
WELL HELL
thats obvious...
Wooosssssaaaa
stay positive...   Feel me?

And today is the day

If you just now starting to journey with jag 

you might wanna go back and check my swagAnd today is the day
and i must say
there's not enough light in my life
get it got it good
go thru all truths
and then watch the hearts move
nevertheless settle the rest and hold it in till you the best
fuck what they talking about don't hold your mouth
speak out...
Hot damn
if there was a moment when i need a moment
and today is the day
welcome to the wonderful world of gold plated...
cause and effect...

Your Fix...

Now that we coming down off an orgasim high...

You finally realize how much time flew by...

 ya brow is now dry

 HEY...

 I thought I told you that having sex with me...

 is like going to the amusement park riding a rollercoasters for free...

...ummm...

yes...

 then she looked at me and said J-A-G whatchu do to me...

 my legs are still shaking and that one position is new to me...

 I had no idea you were a freak like that...

 Yea I'm a freak but i usually dont eat like that...

but you an exception to the rule

i think you are cool

 plus i wanted to take u to a brand new school... 

you taught me a few things and i hope u learned a few 

of course i did but you better quit

grabbin on my---

before we break something

that might be able to be fixed

shidd

Im not sorry i apologize

Sometimes i have to vent...

and right now you need to listen...

sometimes i can't just hold it in... matter of fact i never can... i have to release my feelings... it make me feel so much better... i know it seem you're always to blame but maybe it's me... i have the problem... im the one who has to have it my way... no matter what... yes i need affection but i also need to give it... yes i would like attention but i also can give it... but let's take a look at what i do give... I give my all... everything you ask i say yes maybe not right away, i always gotta make sure you want it as much as you say you do but you cant fault me for that right...? Anything you need or want i give to you.... But how am i repaid? Like this... just like this... vent to you once again... why... why... don't you want me? why dont you need me like i need you? why... why do i feel like im the only one in this relationship? why dont i understand... I always understand not this time i dont think i can... so for that i apologize!!!!

Welcome to Sweet Clover Lane

So let me let you into my life here in the 010... so i moved out of my two bedroom apartment to a promising situation. I know you asking what might that be J? Well... (guys envy me) three young ladies in a four bedroom two story house looking for a new roommate. I was acquaintances with all the ladies but i only know one of them well enough to say she is my friend. Her name is Chelsea she's a pretty little red head with freckles and a nice athletic body. She's the friend we've hung out a little, you know been to the movies, out to eat, watched Monday night football when our teams played, the Wii, nothing more, nothing less. Now that's Chelsea. OK then you have Lydia she's a real short, slim built, blond, who's parents don't know she lives in the house with a guy, nice girl kind of conservative but loves to drink. Last but not least there's Jorja she's a brunette, loud, party girl, and i think she might be kind of hard of hearing. They suggested i call it something else but i felt "A Blond, a Brunette, a Red head, and Black guy" was inappropriate but anyway. So not too long ago we four move in together. Our first night in the house all together was very interesting... And it started like this... J we got cards, alcohol, and a sexy black man why don't you get naked for us Jorja says. Girl stop you embarrassing him Chelsea said. O he don't mind he knows he's a little hottie with a cute smile, Lydia said. Little? i said with a smirk on my face. Yes little Lydia said as she stood up and poked her nose into the middle of my chest. OK ladies this is what I'll agree to do if all y'all play a game with me i will get partially naked. Partially? Chelsea responded with echos from the other girls. OK agree to play the game and i will get naked. That what I'm talking about Jorja yells... let the games begin...

To Be continued...

Full of crap

O FYI im full of crap separating my blog is too difficult and it's 2010 so im just gonna do what i do and keep it moving disregard the last post... whats new... new year... new house... new roommates... welcome to Sweet Clover Lane.... continuing in the next post!!!