Yea Well whatever!!! (encounters Interlude)

Yea, Well....Whatever

 Do what you do but watch my shoes...

ha ha...

there's so... so much i wanna say to you but you wouldn't understand even if you stood under it...

 it seems to you like I'm on some other shit but the truth of the matter I am on some other shit..

I'm NOT ABOUT TO FAKE AND FRONT LIKE YOU THE SHIT when yous just another bitch...

Hell...

what do i look like stalking you and not going to the lake and fish...

 Yea yea yea...

i know you love attention you can't get enough of it...

 you're shallow and the only thing we have is a sexual connection...

You talk to much...

I talk to little...

 you get on my nerves...

i get on yours...

You think I'm cold and heartless...

You are cold and heartless...

but on the other hand...

man this is bullshit...

i love the way you switch...

You can't leave me now not in the middle of this...

the source of my weakness is in Ur kiss...

 addicted to your ways of mischief and wits...

You got me hooked now the fall is getting longer...

my attraction is steady getting stronger...

high is getting weaker...

you got me acting like a geek er...

 smelling like a ten year old pair of ball sneaker...

dazed and confused lost in the struggle...

 trying to hustle and bustle...

i doubt you feel the same way about you ...

cause you don't know...

 what you do...

 it's second nature to you...

you do it easily...

but you know what...

 fuck that...

 Your not loving me the way i want you to...

 so i had to run from you...

you hit me with the 808 and i'll save the heartbreak...

My Love... the Conscious of a broke heart

As the love spills from my heart

the water that once filled my eyes slowly moves apart

down my cheeks and graciously past my lips

the conscious flashing broken clips

No ideal he would miss her this much

the tenderness of her touch

the love in her eyes and such...

sweetness in her moan

how when he kissed her she was immediately turned on

on and on like Erka badu maybe next lifetime

maybe this just wasn't our time

maybe this is all a dream for him to share with you

shew!!!

from a bad ass dream to a bad ass day

how would you feel diagnosed ill today
in the middle of time he's facing the ground

pressure push positive to the back of spine

his conscious outlined in nonsense

life has no rewind

nonsense

he's pass the hate and all the greed
facing the man mirror look at me

hold ya head still

look at he reborn

life is real

barely willed to keep it real

bad ass dream

yup for real

Crash and burn

Crash and Burn
what really does your heart yurn?
is it love or is it lust?
is it truth or is it lies?
to be or not to be?
Seeking hardcore or softfloor?
who truely can you trust?
whats real and whats fake?
No deal No cake?
Drain the lake and find the snake
Crash and mutha fucking burn!!!

Somethings happened to me

Yea.... i said somethings happened to me i lost something and i don't know what it is.. maybe it's my sensitive nice guy, chiverish momma taught me right, and I'm going to treat her right even if she don't give a damn about my feelings and my great understand of words and their meanings and how much i take to heart..,WELL!!!

Yep now that i say it in mybrain as i type i realize that's exactly what i lost i just don't give a damn anymore... and it's like a good man is unappreciated... i mean don't get me wrong everybody got their hang ups and no one is perfect but i sure as hell know how to treat a woman, mentally, physically, emotionally, now my best friend would tell me that;that's where i go wrong think i know women.. but see what I'm trying to say is i don't know them but i know how i want THINGS ... and how i feel when i get it so i can only reciprocate what i want and get but i get my love language is flawed...

plus i think i need a reality TV show like FOR THE LOVE OF JAG!! So i can invite 30 flawed crazy ass beautiful women to win my heart in 6 weeks.... Yea right!!! Na not me i would never get that lucky... I'd let them do a pre-show like this is the before... this is the after... this is the show... like i said before something has happened to me when i can reason with having a reality TV show and not think twice... woo i think because i turned 29 not to long ago that Ive surpassed my relationship prime and dating is soon to be out of the question... well needless to say I'm not an asshole i finally figured that out but i do have good sex, and the potential marriage type... but if this is true what the hell is stopping YOU!!!!

Survival of the fittest

I had something i wanted to write this morning but i dont know how to write it cause my thoughts are jumbled... today i woke up wishy washy and unstable i think i lost one of the legs off my table this is true not a fable... balance and stablity please if your able. Tolerance is the capacity to endure hardship and pain because im "not easily broken" to the moon is where i aim. To get in the way would be stupid you might as well join the train chu-chu kid! There are a lot of curse words and mean ass quotes floating around now someone once said a smile is a frown turned upside down i also learned that you use more muscles frowning but if that is fact then is a smile really a frown turned upside down... i think not... Anyway i blog because i have these moments where my heart and my mind fight with reality and truth... then i get lost and i dont understand but then there's this thing called love the most perculiar thing ever... Some people can say i love you and really don't know what it means... if you love someone you love everything about them including their flaws... alrighty then... i have a knack for picking... enough said...

Justify my LOVE

Let me tell you about this situation that might have you pacing racing home to the lady...
got home to the lady... no response to "hey baby"What the fuck is going on... this is more than my home... it's the place i rest my head slow pace to the bed... my house is so dead no one in sight.... no insight... On the counter a Dear JaG letter.. "YOU CAN DO BETTER" was the header
I'm at work making the cheddar she's at home writing bullshit letters...
Hold on it gets better... this is what is said... I know you've never done me bad...
i love you for that... but i met someone new and please don't call me a hoe....This is not about you... it's about me..surely knew i wasn't happy...
OK.... so what did i do? I kind of had an ideal where she went.... So i hopped in the ride and over there i went...
knock knock knock
so she comes out and so does he... ain't this a bitch!!! anyway as she walks by i have to say... Stop look at me I'm so sincere... I ain't playing no games let's get this clear... this is about our life our future our time... Don't walk away I'm talking do you mind...? It's been on my mind for a while now i need ya... sit down... stop being childish shit... this is ridiculous shit... why ain't you listening... I need you in my life but the way you make me feel right now is way out of character even for you...you gotta admit it's true... what the hell did he do...You were tripping... well maybe me too... let's sit down and talk take a mental walk... vrooom she drove off... now im about to really go off!!!