Secrets

90.0 % of people have secrets and thats being generous its more like 99.9%. I was watching private practice and one of the doctors got raped and wont tell anybody around her whats going on and she's actually being a real asswhole towards everyone thats tried to reach out to her... i often wonder how people who keep secrets are so defensive?... and if its really the secret that makes them defensive or is it their conscious eating at them wanting them to release the pressure of their secret?  I say its not ok to keep secrets but i also keep a lot of secrets because im a good friend who just listens i rarely give advice unless asked and thats the main reason i feel better releases secrets here...to... yall because i only have two followers on here who really know me.... i said all that to say this..

Have you kept a secret or are you keeping a secret?

Do you have a private practice?

Sympathy

Have you ever have someone tell you "I feel your pain or i feel ya or i understand"? I have and it's weird to me because 60% of the time people say it just to make themselves feel better for not knowing what to say, but then you have the other 40% of people who either really feel you or have been through exactly what you're going through. In most instance you know someone or are friends with one of the three. I have come to the conclusion that I'm a Super Sympathetic person because if someone is grieving i start grieving if someone is sick i feel their sickness but i don't really get sick if someone is happy i immediately get happy. I guess that's what the wise man meant when he said Energy is neither created nor destroyed it's merely passed on....

I said that to say this Smile it confuses people it may make someones day and they may smile back...

Dare to be different!!!

Thirsty thursday

On the bed

candles lit

eyes closed

deep breathing

body's moving

fist clinched

sheets wrinkle

wall knocking

loud moaning

um ah

yeas O's

up down

in out

this way that way

sweat

slower

smoother

easier

sweeter

feel it

deeper

faster

stronger

hard

harder

harder

shaking

pulsing

vibrating

convulsing

quaking

limber

euphoria

limp

loving

leap

sleep

O face!!!!

O... i often wonder

If... i often hunger

just for the thirst... under

more for the burst... under

this may be my curse... under

what may be the worst hunger

i long for the first bite

of the gift...right?

the gift gave great guarantee

that lonely i'll never be

but it takes a moment

to get to that moment

more mind less movement

I meant more or less move minds

and interwine with hunger

mine my mind

and find thoughts

of you and i

lots of yesses

ohh's and ahh's

umm's and

O...

I often wonder...

Scene setting - part 2 of 4

The sound of the a/c has stopped
As I sink deeper into the cushions of the couch...

... I kind of doze off on the couch before my phone rings and jolts me out of my sleep "hu...hu... hello", i say as i wipe the drool from my mouth. "Yes, um mm my a/c unit just went off and i don't know what happen i can't get it to come back on" the sweet voice on the other line said. "Do you think you can come over and fix this for me?","Of course i can", i replied. So i got her address and the numbers off the unit before we got off the phone so i know exactly what tools to bring. I zip my Dickie coveralls back up grabbed my tools out of the shed and hop in the truck. Luckily, she only lived like fifteen minutes away so i got to her house in about 10 minutes. As I weave through traffic like Mario Andretti my memory strikes me... O my God this is Ms. Clark's house. Ms. Clark's is a successful, single, sexy, lawyer or as my buddies call her 3S.L. As i arrive at the house i make it a point to make sure i look presentable. Freshly shaved head... check.... clean breath... check... fresh underarms.... check... Aqua de gio fragrance... check... I ring the doorbell and i heard a voice behind the door say"One moment please" five seconds later i hear click-clack it sounded like a double lock unlatching, the door came open and there she stood...
(to be continued... jill)

Unexpected Journey

As I pull in the parking spot, put the car in park ,roll the windows up, and put one foot out the car but before i got all the way out i have to looked in the console to get a piece of orbit gum... Maui melon mint don't ask me why but... it was a new flavor and the packs were on sale 2 for 1 or 2 for $2 something like that so i bought them both gas up and hit the road... anyway back to the moment at hand... insert gum, mirror check, smile check, fresh smell check, good attitude check, yea i think I'm ready.

So i step out of the car shoot a smile. She says,"How are you?" UH UH UH in my head I'm stuttering but instinctively i say fine and you? Cause what else could she have ask maybe how was your drive but that answer still would have been suffice. She was amazing maybe I'm bias but i thought she hadn't aged one bit she still looked the same fine as a spider web in the spring sun with morning dew on it deeeeezzzam.... Yep this is going to be interesting. Mind met heart... heart met her... Heart says "Hell what if she's crazy? minds says "shut up its your turn to speak"... O O Hey did you have a good day today? this spark a good conversations i tried to pay attention as much as possible so i could engage in meaningful conversation and see where she stands on my genuine scale... and as i stair into her eyes i get lost in her thoughts... follow me... now this is part of my keen ability to shift through bullshit... (going into museum director mode)

OK as we enter the maze we call the mind through the eyes of a stranger you can see that in the back of her mind she has some interesting thoughts about guys and her journey in life has landed her some bad experiences then if you look to the left you can see her ability to trust has been scratched off a little bit kind of like a scratch off lotto ticket, but if you look to the right....

hold on... listen ....she just ask us a question. O she just ask if we were thirsty... Sure juice is fine. OK back to the maze... Where was i? o OK yea and to the right is her spontaneous button kind of like a fire alarm on the wall it seems to be big so she might be one that likes to try new things and loves adventure she may even be creative let's see. And last but not lest, straight back is the glass of love it's a beautiful perfectly blown glass shaped like a rose its amazing... look... her glass is filling up as we speak she must like us... and if you turn around you can see what is making the glass fill up. Look we're playing with her kids she must not know we love kids... hey watch this when the glass gets full on the ceiling voice bubbles pop up... Is that real? I wonder if he is really good with kids or is he faking?

Hold on.... listen... shes asking one of the questions....

Are you trying to be good with my kids so i'd fall for you? "NO! of course not i respond i love kids!

Ok back to the maze O wow people i've never seen this before the voice bubbles have stopped she is comfortable listen to her heart... it speaks... THE ONLY WAY YOU WILL KNOW IS IF YOU KISS HIM.... yea i know mr heart is loud he somehow gets the intercom.

buzz buzz... we just got a text. it from her she wants a kiss... ummm... ummm... ok stall for a second... stand up walk to the kitchen O no she got up too ummm...ummm what if she doesnt like it what if ummm... f*&% it go for it....MUAHLALALA...LALA O wow that was good...shew!!! She can kiss let's do that again.... Look dont get carried away now... Ok ok it's bout time to go it's late and your getting a little excited dont wanna take this thing to far....