Wednesdays War-The gift and the Curse

So i have these problems but honestly i don't know if they're problems ... i think they're gifts but they seems to be curses... #1 See i have this innate ability to bring emotions in people out... example: One of my best friends in the whole world had never been able to speak her heart to anyone when she's frustrated about something no one would ever know, when she feels bad about something no one would never know when she doesn't like something or someone no one would ever know... and some how she manages to be the most cheerful, loving, easy going, person i know (lack of stress)... but not to long ago i asked why... and when i ask why i mean i ask WHY to the Nth degree... "Why cant you express yourself what makes speaking your heart so difficult...?" I haven't ever bitten my tongue for anyone, i don't beat around the bush, and i definitely don't lead people to believe one thing and it's really another.... I guess cause i despise fakeness and fake people. And at first she was like i don't know!!! i don't know!!! but i wouldn't let up SO she broke down being that I'm her best friend it wasn't hard for her to express herself to me. Now she's brand new (kind of bitchy) but hey she's keeping it real... (gift or curse)

#2 To me what you say means a lot... I'm a words person i understand words very well I'm a listener.. I'm attentive even when I'm not engaged I'm listening and watching interactions around me (people watcher)... example You say well jag I feel like this but you mean you feel like that and the way you said it is as if you mean it like this so i take it like this and not like that and you get mad... SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY... (gift or curse?)

I digress, as i said before i always ask why? Because to me there's a reason for everything...(gift or curse?)

Another problem i have is with Hypothetical questions and statements (IF questions)i tend to hypothetically answer them and it seems to make people upset. (if... if... was a fifth we'd all be drunk) exxxxample... planning a trip (scenario) IF I would have remembered then we could have went there...my response... "Well you didn't so what are we doing???" In that sentence I'm not being a smart ass I'm just saying we can only go with what is real not Hypothetical... (gift or curse?)

Do you think these are gifts or curses?
Or am i just an asshole

Mental workout! What's next?

Mind sore from a mental workout
thoughts strong and kinks needing to be jerked out
with exploration in mind need to search out
out search everyone else and get the murk out
reach out teach about the works and how it hurts
ouch
wow speechless crowd
growing smaller
just enough room on the couch
a little longer
for us to speak less
either that or preach lessons
neither nor see that's blessings
not what i expected
cry flames for a second
what's next then

I take a deep breath for therapeutic exercise

feel my heat come watch me rise

normally I'm mild mannered cool calm and collected

but you know who is looking to be respected

I try to keep my composure but its getting heck tic

i try to gain some ca-closure but its getting heck tic

what's next?