So whats up? KIR!!!!

I don't understand why you insist on texting me telling me how much you hate me... and how much the new guy is the best thing for you and how much stronger you are because of me... i understand it's been a while since u probably had a REAL good dick'em down(yeah i said it) or you miss me and you can't get me off your mind but Damn B!%&$ you know good and damn well we weren't meant to be... our ship was sailed on a lie and it sunk immediately after you came clean and being the gentleman i am i tried to forgive you but just like the little girl you were before the lie came out the little girl you stayed... So whats up for real??? Why do you insist on trying to torment me if your so happy and your so blessed. You've told me i was lame but what is lame is that u cant get over i couldn't be with a liar who tried to sabotage my life by being selfish... but don't get me wrong i forgave u i even loved u unconditionally... what more can i say??? I just don't get it I'm happy Ur happy and wish you the best, peace, and blessing in our parting but when u think about me or speak to me you don't see or say anything good after all we went through there lies the problem and that problem ain't with me... and my final words to you are GET REAL... KEEP IT REAL... GET RIGHT... KEEP IT RIGHT... AND KNOW THYSELF AIGHT!!! PS. respect is of the highest order and it's earned not giving.

December-Desymber

The night i met Desymber(pronounced December) was crazy. The night began with the 2 S's shave and shower. I was so excited about the reuniting with old an old friend but i was oblivious to the environment i was entering into. I walked into the front door of what i thought was a business district condo building rudely awakened, i stepped directly into a diff

erent world flashing lights, half naked extra friendly women and loud music... o wow!!! hummmm? where am i? Excuse me sir a professional voice says to the right of me as i stand mesmorized? Yes i say as i snap out of my trans. Only to turn to this woman ---> stunned by her obvious elegant and striking beauty... so she speaks i listen she says my friend was waiting on me at the bar, and before i could ask she said yes she would be joining us... Follow me she said as she stood from her seat with a winter white pencil skirt with big black belt and some black stilettos with straps and buckles yeah i was checking her out... "Here you go", Jag. "Thanks i replied but she was already across the room ... As i sat down the bartender sat a drink down in front of me it looks like my drink of choice... What's up man!!! My best friend Anton said as he stood to shake my hand. Not much man but who is....? O that's my home girl Desymber she saw pictures of you and thought u were cute so i wanted y'all to meet but don't tell her i told u that she's kind of bashful...

Guess who's back one again>>>TRUSTED

Once again i abandon you guys but I'm back for the long haul now i need to finish the year strong... OK let's get on with it the topic for today is... lies.

rule#1 Man lie women lie numbers don't!!!

OK i know that's harsh..but tell me its not true...you'd be lying. Honestly, this is a big problem for me i once was a player... not a real player just never knew how to tell women no which in turn got me into lots of trouble with girlfriends and such ... after a little time alone i pledged never to hurt another women. From the age 23 i stop using my charm for my own selfish reasons and started using it to really find a soul mate. This turned out to make me a sceptic of all women i wanna know their true intentions from day one but it never works like that. I never truly trust them and i seem to run them away no matter how much i seem to like, love, or adore them. their history combined with my fear of that bitch named karma makes me the ultimate "never happy over critical boyfriend."

if u were me what would you do if you loved someone but couldn't trust them?

Old Pain

Hey readers have you ever been hurt in such a way that you thought you would never let it go...

well here's a little story I'd like to tell...

From a distance i see the shore and i hope she's standing in the same place i left her... i rush to the bow of the boat to see if she was there... I scan the whole shore... run back to my room grab my bag and line up at the gate as the boat docks the shore. As the gate hits the dock i sprint to the shore and damn near falling as i trip over the curb i catch myself with my left hand and stand up straight looking for her... i run from one end of the dock to the other twice trying to make sure i didn't miss a spot... NO this cant be?! She's not her! she said she would be here when i got back i know it's been two years but she was well aware i was coming back today...

(fast forward two years later)

I've been home for 24 months bought a house, got a job, finished school, and still have seen her... she was my heart the only family i had, the one i expected to be there for me and she wasn't... i had spent the last 24 months alone and now i was finally ready to go out and have some fun... i debated long and hard whether to go out cause i knew deep down inside i would see her.

(Flash forward twenty minutes)

Sure enough as soon as i walk in the club there she stands ten feet from me at the bar... i turn around attempting to leave but then i see my reflection in the mirror "don't run like she did" convincing myself to turn around... I stroll across the club through the crowded dance floor and right up to her... Hi nice to see you again...

OK people this is the moment of where we either let our hearts pain go or release it... What would you do?