I'm out

Never again will i be left in the dark
so i guess never again will you fall with your heart
fuck the dumb shit... i aint dumb shit...
o yea and nevermind that bum shit...
Have fun shit!!
I'm through with it i can't make any deals
i can tell you how evil you feel
this shit is worth taking some pills
but shit you aint even ill
well it might make me get better
i mean feel better
but hell so will the sunny weather
no no u dont understand
where theres a will theres a way
man bullshit im just a man
i can will all i want and the way
never stands
how about i just follow my head instead
cause your hearts to weak
but your mind is unstable
fuck u im able
no ur not you cant
bullshit!!! I can!
damn!!!

The messenger

A messege form in the clouds falls from the sky/ lands in the hearts of many word spead for miles/ the messenger gifted prolific with his words/ very meticulous with the placement of his verbs/ he recognizes his audience is reckless/ and only want to see the bling on his neckless/ and only wants to hear the drugs that he rest with/ and only want to be the thugs that he dealth with/ but deeper than that the butterfly effect got'm mezmorized falling in love with...that!!!

Survival of the fittest

I had something i wanted to write this morning but i dont know how to write it cause my thoughts are jumbled... today i woke up wishy washy and unstable i think i lost one of the legs off my table this is true not a fable... balance and stablity please if your able. Tolerance is the capacity to endure hardship and pain because im "not easily broken" to the moon is where i aim. To get in the way would be stupid you might as well join the train chu-chu kid! There are a lot of curse words and mean ass quotes floating around now someone once said a smile is a frown turned upside down i also learned that you use more muscles frowning but if that is fact then is a smile really a frown turned upside down... i think not... Anyway i blog because i have these moments where my heart and my mind fight with reality and truth... then i get lost and i dont understand but then there's this thing called love the most perculiar thing ever... Some people can say i love you and really don't know what it means... if you love someone you love everything about them including their flaws... alrighty then... i have a knack for picking... enough said...

Memories

Thoughts dig deep like when i stood about two feet... u sat on the porch and smoked tweeds... i made mud pies to throw in the streets... i sat on the porch and played "bingo" aka "that's my car"we walked 5 blocks school didn't seem that far... 3 blocks in, you stopped at the bar so 2 blocks i ran...damn then you met him... and we moved in a few years later i had a little sister... he was a real hustle man with a junk trunk in the front and stash in the back over the attic where i stayed at... he had three stacks in a can in a hole in the yard... next to the old broken down brougham brown car... his friends used to come over all the time... knock on the side door and buy this thing he called the pine... nickels, dimes, and quarters he taught me my math...no certain order... then we moved from the west to lively and i had to ride a bus and highly... hated it!!! but when they said i couldn't read... yea, that's the way they stated it... i had to leave the honors school and go to public one Ha...the new school said i was to smart for my own good but i didn't fit with the geeks... so, I'm burning down the block and search the neighbor while you were gone to work...i ran the hood... Key around my neck, latched to my Jordan, or on my handle bars... one time i went to far and didn't have a car... i didn't get home till 11...a least i prayed to the heaven... cause i caught a flat... and this was way back...had to walk my bike it was dark... started to run cause some stupid dog barked... i got home spooked... it was just me... 7 came quick i got up for school... little did you know what i went through... but hey i made it and pride came through... yep I'm the man...who... me that's who... and then you met him...

"My heart, my life, my song"

Born 4/2/1980 to a little light skinned red haired lady
she was discharged about three days later

to a world that was misunderstood
like a lonely sheep left out to the wolves

she was to young to go out on her own
about two years later she was out on her own

GED in one hand JAG in the other
Now that's what you call a single black mother

Had to get a job just to feed my mouth
her 11 to 7 was a 12 round bout

but never alone cause GOD helps his own
with the master chaperon she raised a milestone

wash my own clothes wash my own dishes
played by myself may a lot of wishes

thank you Momma for bring the wild child out the jungle
now I'm warmed up ready to rumble this is my heart this is my life this is my song.

co2005.
JaG