It's complicated

WhY make it so complicated
i just wish i would have never ate it
you can't get over that if you say you hate it
well hold your breath cause i think we made it....

I've come to realize happiness is not about ME... POINT MADE!!!
but my relationship road as you've all prolly read in my previous to blogs has been a bumpy rollercoaster not smooth at all no matter how soft my leather was the engine still ended up burning out.
My real reason for writing is i need to release my sickness... i am a nice guy(contrary to popular belief) but i have hood tendencies... I groomed myself that way to eliminate the pain i had the first time i was hurt from happening again. My good guy makes women love me and fall in love with me but my bad boy wants to take advantage of that...(sidebar)like in most cartoon like movies i have the angel and devils advocate on my shoulders... so picture the lil guy dressed in white and a lil guy dressed in red on my shoulders... Angel" she a good girl do right by her" Dadvocate f**** that she's wants to much it's about you"
...Anyway back to reality, Women have two men at all times, i once heard a wise women say, "the one that shes in love with and the one that loves her or takes care of her." For most of her life it's her dad( if he's present) and the man of her dreams at the time (day to day)
But guys on the other hand dont have a standard too... i like to call this Polywomenistic- meaning there are a lot of women who effect the lives of a man. wheither its his first grade teacher or his auntie telling him women are bad influences or his moms saying dont go sticking ya thing into anything with two legs.
You See by the time guys get into girl theres a mix perception so figuring out how to act towards women is hard( even if you had full family) cause women are complicated (period WITH A PERIOD)... any debate takers?

REcess

Time after time... after the last time
I knew i was done
I promised my world once again to someone
I made an adjustment not to fly the coupe
I learned my lesson long time ago
but in the mist of learning i took recess
my recess then has now made me look like Ive digressed
pathetic is how i look...
wow...
no matter how long ago i closed that book
i cant forget what my recess took.

broken hearted

Some things come and some things go
doors open and the wind blows
pushing you along into the world
next to the sun the heart curls
holding on tight with all your might
but it pulls away and makes it’s own way
down the hill and into the valley
the grass is not that green in that alley
but the soil is rich
with vitamins, knowledge, and gear to climb out the ditch
"I have to pay attention, count my blessings and learn my lessons..."
through time, growth, and prayer alone the pain subsides and
the beginning ends....

The Morning AFTER!!!

It was a cold winter morning and she stood in the window watching the flakes slowly cover what once was a perfect yard and matching driveway. As the crackling of the fireplace separates the silence from her thoughts she begins to daydream about the events of the night before. When he came to visit she was in the house just watching TV. Her show just went to commercial and she was going to her snack out of the refrigerator strawberries and whipped cream. She grabbed the basket of strawberries and went to reach for the whipped cream just as soon as she touched the container she felt a slap on her ass she turned so fast she almost dropped the basket of strawberries. When she turned no one was there. Boy stop!! Come in here, give me a kiss! He yelled back, “No, you come greet me at the door.” Ok, she replied as she grabbed the whipped cream and shut the refrigerator door. As she goes around the corner she doesn’t see him anywhere she looked out the front door, in the kids’ room and in the dining area…. He finally come out from behind the door and grabs her from behind and embraces her with a sensitive kiss on the neck. “Boy do not play with me like that you almost got beat up.” she says as she turns to face him. He grabs her hand and turns her again as if they were on a ballroom dance floor she spins, as she complete her second revolution he kisses her no intentions just a simple kiss to let her know he cares and he’s there for her… after the kiss they shared strawberries and she woke up cuddled up with her pillow… The morning AFTER... what's next people?